Bulldawg8474’s Weblog

Ok so three weeks ago I had a meeting with the CEO of a company and was told that they 100% wanted to bring me on as part of there team doing business development and government sales. The only catch was it would be 1 - 1.5 months out. When I got let go this M I set up a meeting with their top sales person that I would be working under. My whole reason for setting up the meeting was to try to pin down a real date so I could know what I need to do in the time between jobs. This was some whatof a good meeting. We talked at  for two hrs Tuesday morning. He was wanting to bring me on a soon a he could, but I still did not have a date. I let him know this is what I was looking for. This morning I got a call from the CEO. I did not answer my phone and he left a message. I listened to the message. He said that it would now be 5 - 6 months out. This is not a real short term thing now. I am back to ground zero and I need to start over. If it were still the first amt of time I was told it would only be 3 weeks more of waiting.

Maybe God just does not want me to do this. I have felt like i have been called into working with kids in the church for around a year now. Maybe I should just go and get this lined up. I have been talking with them already about doing that part time. Maybe God’s plan is more of a full time thing which is also an option the church has brought up.

I will be leaving tomorrow to go up to the mtns. I am hoping to find some answers in the stillness up there. I love going up there. It is a place that I have always felt I could leave my troubles behind and reflect on the important things in life.  

I have had so many things happen this week…. To start off Monday I had to do a lot of driving to do with work. I needed gas in my truck bacause I was on E. I drove to the gas station closest to the house. When I got there I found out that the pump was messed up and when I would try to enter my pin number the wrong numbers would go in. This caused my account to lock me out. My room mate helped me out tons and gave me his American Express card to get gas till I could get my account fixed. Then I was on my way to Athens to look at some land for work. I got to see tons of deer running around and just felt better about everything else from the morning.

Then on the way back I saw a homeless man with a sign trying to get money on the exit ramp off I-85 and Jimmy Carter. There was one problem… He was talking on a cell phone. When were the homeless given cell phones? Needless to say I did not give any money.

Then the same day when I got back to the office I had a lady that I work with come up and tell me that her brother was wanting to talk to me. I will give you some back ground… Last year I worked as a bouncer at a club for like 2 months. I had no idea why I did that. Anyway I met this lady’s brother there. He was into stuff that he should not have been. Then he got into some legal trouble. The courts told him that he could no longer hang out with the same people. He has hit rock bottom and is ready to change his life. He told his sister he wanted to talk to me cause he needed some positive people in his life.  I did not know how to take this at first but then I started to think. What if God had me work as a bouncer just to put me in this guys life. I have worked with kids ranging in age from Middle school to High School for a few years now, but he is older than me. So far we have spoken on the phone some and he just seems to like having someone to talk to and hold him accountable.

The rest of the week has been somewhat uneventful… till friday. I found out today that I am going to get let go next week. I have been talking to different people and getting a new job lined up for me. I am sure I will talk more about this in the future.  

Last night at church we had Wednesday night supper, and were fortunate enough to have a holocaust survivor come and talk to us it was a hard thing to hear but I am glad that I could be there for it. It will not be much longer and those people will not be around the share their stories. After he was finished I was in standing in the entrance of the church talking with members, when a little old man walked slowly up to me. He had his coat in his hand and asked if I could help him put it on cause he could not get his arms in. This got me thinking….. It is so hard for me to let anyone help me especially for me to walk up to someone and ask for help. I wonder what I will be like when I get his age, if I am blessed enough to make it that long. I can kind of see the struggle my granddad has not. He does not like asking for help, but I know there are things that he just can not do anymore. I try to watch him when I go up to his house in the mtns and he is there. I know he is like me and does not like asking for help. I just want to be there to give it to him when I can.

Hey this is my first one ever and I dont think I will have many but we will see how it all goes. I am not one to write…….